Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Once Upon A Time, the Beautiful Me was born ~ Of Gratefulness and On to Challenges!

My dear Friends, Countrymen, ka-Expats and Lovers (yeah, sure madami kayo :P) Hear ye, Hear ye! Naaah, just want to thank everyone who extended their birthday greetings and wishes. Salamat ^_^

So, another year is done, and am still holding on ♫ (charmos, ginamos tag-singko ang takos!), a year of smooth, tough and rough  life ride. Last year, I wished for my life to get rearranged, not drastically though but at least that there'd be big changes. I needed to feel efficient, to be productive, to be needed. And, God didn't fail me. I was swarmed with proposals and I welcomed them all until I got overwhelmed with commitments to the point of thinking that I needed to step back.

Every day, I wake up not wanting to get up. I still need sleep, I justify. Yet, I need to wedge the thought aside and show up to the world. I prayed for this. This was what I wanted. There will be no quitting. None until I can't keep up anymore.

It was a year filled with challenges, sure. However I am gifted with a Family; a joy to my heart and a provocateur to my blood pressure (you know, family), and Friends, who have been beside and behind me all the way through.  

*Thanks to Ate Amy and Mae, for putting up with my tantrums, weirdness and loudness. Mira and Sheena  - who have been overly supportive and very understanding of my chaotic schedules, who are already asleep whenever I get home and whom I talk to hurriedly (as I always run off to wherever I supposed to go) and Jona - for everything especially the pinaabtiks. Cathy - for being the best errand-er out there. Thank you so much gang. You know how grateful I am to have you. Pang-through thin and thin jud ka (given na ng thick, ). HAHAHA. Norjean - for your time Norj and for all the pinakalit favors. And to my students who kept me inspired, served as my wake up calls, and for making me realize and appreciate everything (life!). Also to my Deira Peeps, who have brought out the best and the beast in me. The harshest pack out there and whom I could be in my meanest self, the squad am willing to mess with things and people alongside (*evil grin). 

The world comes to life
And everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend
By your side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are
When you open your heart
And believe in
The gift of a friend

Thanks for the gift of friendship!

Seriously I have no idea how they were able to put up with me. I don't deserve the generosity and goodness they are showing me. But as the saying "goodness begets goodness". Hahaha. I hear you but, Keep Off The Grass.  

Saturday, October 8, 2016

I Will Make Time

Me: It's almost winter! Let's go back to Abu Dhabi and re-visit the Grand Mosque! And hey, we need to do the Musamdam sea tour again!
Friends: Sure. And, when are you gonna be free?

I was elated by the thought that winter is just around the corner. From the soft-cold wind blow to the Brrr-ing temperature drop to 10°C (tolerable still with thick and layered clothing), I surely dig it over the summers here (who doesn't?). And, it only means one thing: Outdoors!

As I was excitedly blabbing about where I want to go and what I want to do on the weekends of early winter, I got stopped by a quip, 'when are you gonna be free again?', which had me re-tracking each weekend with scheduled appointments and commitments from my phone.

My giddiness to every outdoor fun planned for each weekend gradually died down as I realized that I am bound to volunteerism for the next three months. And, only God knows when I am going to stop since I enjoy and definitely love what I am doing.

I don't whine or cry for a break from what I do for there's no question to my commitment to helping others. However, the nomad part of me screams for a little adventure and where on earth can I find time?

I lecture about time management. I give talks about how important it is and that it should be taken seriously as it plays a vital role and could affect our efficiency and productivity in our day to day living. It is already regarded as cliche yet our feeling of content, satisfaction and fulfillment depends on it. And now, I am the one who needs lecturing.

I remember an Ex once told me over a heated argument of having no time for each other anymore, 'make time', and that 'there's no such thing as trying, it's only either you do it or you don't'. A very timely reminiscing (lol), just when I need the words of wisdom to guide me (haha). Indeed, we learn from our past (do we? :P).

I have to make time. I have to make time to go out and be one with the nature again. I have to make time to unleash the adventurous in me to recharge its drained spirit. I have to make time to bathe in the uncertainties with joy of not knowing what are bound to happen. I have to make time for the vast horizon to fully embrace me away from the hustling metro. I have to make time for a Me Time. I have to make time.

I will make time.